Zindagi..

Lagthi hai mushkil badi ye zindagi ..
Sunsaan si hai raah har kahin...
Dikhti nahi koi raahat ki roshni..
Kise sunavu...yahi hai meri ki kahani...

Simply mad..

Wo saamne se guzri tho mere dil ne dhadakna chod diya

Hum yoon hi baite rahe aur wo haskar chali bhi gayi..

Kyon aayi thi patha nahin..bina ruke gum ho gayi....

Dil bada zalim hai..mantha nahin mera kehna..

Ab tho uske bina nahin hai mujhe rehna..

Kaise samjhavoon is dil ko..

Wo nahin milegi tujhko...

Apne aukaad me reh..

Sirf dekh apne manzil ko...

Kaun hai.kya hai..kuch patha nahi...

Ab tho mere dil me sirf wohi wohi...

Kaise peecha chudavoon dil ki is harkat se...

Pagal gum ho gaya hai yahi kahin

Kya pehle nazar ka pyar jhoota hotha hai..

Pyar ka koi tareeka bhi hotha hai..

Hum nahin samajh the duniya ki baat

Suno sab ki baat tho baad me rona hotha hai..

Kalpana....

Kyon meri kalpanavon me aake yoon satati ho..
kyon ashavon ki jwala jagathi ho...
hum yoon akhele hi khush hain..
Kyon bichare ko jhooti ummeed dilathi ho..
Taras khao hum pe..
Yoon jale par namak na chidko...
Hume bhi jeene do..
Kyon barbaadi ka rastha dikhathi ho..

Kismat..!!

Nahin thi uski koi khata...
Ishq hum kar na paye...
Aur kuch nahin hey mere dil..
Kismat ki bewafayi se hum bach na paye...

Bebasi..!!

Tanhayi me aksar batein karthe hain..
Najane kyon unhe yaad karthe hai..
Koi aake dekhe tho meri bebasi...
Jo hai hi nahin hum unse mulakat karthe hai..

Winner..!!

Jaage hain der tak

hamen kuch der sone do..

Thodi se raat aur hai

subah to hone do..

Aadhe adhure khwaab jo

pure na ho sake..

Ek baar phir se neend mein

woh khwaab bone do..

You must have heard this song from the film ‘Guru’.I like these
lyrics very much.Superb combination of ARR and Gulzar. I was
very much impressed by it when I heard it for the first time.
It has got wonderful meaning and lyricist is able to maintain
the rhymes too. I don’t know the relevance of this song in
the film but these are such superb lines which I can link
to my life.

Everyone dreams. Some people succeed in achieving their
dreams. Some don’t. Even though success cannot be defined
or compared, still winners have their own achievements to show. 

Who is a winner or what is success? If a person has lot of money, does that mean that he is the winner in life? Or a person who has attained the eternal bliss can be called successful? Or a person who is highly educated or a top sportsman or a top actor or top in any field can be called as winners? That means all are winners but is there any single formula for winning? Is hard work, the only mantra that can make you a winner? But money can be earned in other ways too. Lot of people whom we can call as winners may not have worked hard. Does that mean luck is the factor? Or is it a combination of hard work and luck? Or any other factors also required?

The story of heroine..

I just finished reading “Jackdaws” by Ken Follett. Thought of posting some of my comments about the author and the book. I like this author very much. It’s almost like an addiction for me. I find his writing very attractive and catchy. You will never feel to put his books down.
Mostly he writes spy thrillers and it is always like a Bollywood storyline. I know most of the films in Bollywood are “inspired” by English novels. Hence when you read this author you feel like watching a Bollywood movie. The only exception is that, there are no songs. J There is a hero, a heroine, a villain and other supporting characters. I know in all novels there will be characters like this. But I don’t know why, whenever I read his novels, I feel like I am there with all the characters as a witness to all the events in the story. The story will be very past paced and you will not get bored any time.

Most of his stories are framed in historical settings. He does a good research on the subject of his novels. That’s one of the reasons I like him.There will be lot of technical details which sometimes puts you off the track but not for long. Like in one of his novels he explains about piloting the aircrafts and its technicalities and elsewhere he does research on earthquakes and that story is based on causing earthquakes by using a vibrator machine. Though seems very unbelievable, still you will like it for the entertaining storyline. Most of his stories will contain some or the other technical details on various subjects. It’s not simply a story with all ordinary characters and ordinary events. His characters are so strong that when you read, you actually visualize that person. That’s where I like Follett. He says his novels are based on actual stories and he also gives us a glimpse of the true story.

“Jackdaws” is a story timed at World War II and it’s the story of the resistance of occupied France. It’s the story of Hitler and his invasions though he is not a character in this novel. It’s a story of 6 women of French resistance movement and how they carry on their war against the occupying forces.

Felicity Clariet, known as Flick is the leader of Jackdaws, a group of 6 women and she is also the heroine of the story and the story is almost circled around this character. Though it contains heroes, they don’t play much role here, as the heroine takes charge of the story as well as the events in the book.

To summarize the story, it’s about the plot, preparations and the actions of a mission carried by Jackdaws headed by Flick who is a British agent. The mission is to blow up the chateau that now houses the crucial telephone exchange connecting the French telephone system to that of Germany. And it’s also about the counter actions by the Gestapo. As always, there is a villain in this story too. But unlike his other novels, Follett’s villain in this story is a likeable character. Franck, who is a German army officer and in charge of the counter action is almost like a hero. You like him for his brilliance and his style of working but at the same time hate him for his brutal interrogations.

The story unfolds in a typical Bollywood style. It starts with a failed attempt to blow up the Telephone exchange and both the heroine and the villain come face to face and it’s also the introduction tactic.

It is 1944 and the Allies are preparing for the invasion of Europe , but the Allies need to make sure that communications is down for longer so that there will be as little warning of the invasion as possible. This is the reason behind the mission to bomb the Telephone Exchange.
When the first operation doesn’t succeed, they escape with their lives and Flick returns to her home in London. And then starts the plot for the next attack. This time with an all-female team that will infiltrate the exchange posing as French cleaning staff.

The story moves very fast. There are some incidents where the group gets into trouble but unbelievably escapes them. And there are graphic descriptions of the brutal interrogations of men and women. But if we look at the story as a whole it’s very likable. I really enjoyed reading it.

When you know.. you are office sick..!!

Month ends are really hectic..tough deadlines to meet..with no difference of weekend or weekday..when we work in odd timings..you dont know when you will take rest...happens every month..infact we are so immersed in the work that we forget that...we got salary and its time for party...

This time I got to know how the office sickness can affect you.. as usual during month ends, yesterday also I went home very late..tired and drowsy..and you know what..I was trying to open my house door by using my office access card...too much of office isnt it?...hmmm

Ajeeb Rishta..

Door rehkar bhi yaad teri aaye…

Paas job bhi ho tanhayi sataye..

Kuch rishte hothe hi ajeeb hai..

Fasle jitne bhi ho..magar hothe kareeb hain..

Bewafa Panchi..!!

Nasha uske mohabbat ka yoon chadgaya hai..

Zindagi ka rastha najane kis taraf mudgaya hai..

Kitna samjavoon is bechare dil ko..

Tu tho ek khilona tha us bewafa ke haath me..

Taras kha mujh par..ab tho nashe se bahar aa..

Wo panchi tho kab ka yoon udgaya hai..

Kuch bikhre lamhe...

Some lines which were written in different moods..

Ehsaas hai mujhe uske pehle nazar ka..
Mere dil pe huyi ajeeb asar ka..
Mujhe yaad hai woh lamhe uske intezar ka..
Afsos hai ki kabhi bayan nahin kar paya dile deedar ka..
Shayad use bhi patha tha mere is haal ka..
Par mujhe malum na tha uske khayal ka..
Akhir kya kehna chahtha tha us se..
Jo aaj tak na keh paya..
Kya har rishte ka naam pyar hotha hai..
Ya kuch rishton ke naam nahin hothe..
Kuch hai javaab mere is saval ka..


Some more lines....

Acha hotha agar zindagi me akhele hothe...
Mathlabi dost bewafa yaaron se door hi rehthe..
Magar zindagi tanha nahin guzarthi..
Kuch sarfire rehte hai zindagi me aathe jathe..
Har baar pathar ko heera samajh ke dokha khata hoon..
Phir zindagi ke har mod par bewafayi patha hoon..
Zindagi ke itne thokar khake bhi hastha gatha hoon..
Magar najane kyon akhele me rotha hoon..
Hasne do duniya ko duniya se kya lena hai...
Hasna tho uska kaam hai magar mujhe jeeke dikhana hai..

Still more...

Chehre tho bahut dekhe chandni bhi naseeb huyi..
Aankon me doob doob ke aadhi zindagi hi kharab huyi..
Magar jab usko dekha tho laga ki...
Chand hi nahin sitare bhi meherbaan huyi...

Dost ke liye...

Just posting few of the sms sent to my friend...instead of the boring HRU?..GM..GN..Hwz life?..I wrote the same in different way...

Kaisi chal rahi hai zindagi tumhari..
Mili kya koi achi si naukri...
Kyon nahin karthe tum mujhe phone..
Tumhare siva mera hai hi kaun...

I sent this to him when one day he aksed me why I am silent on shayari these days...

Wakt nahin yahan sar khujane ko...
Kah rahe ho shayari karne ko...
Agar ban gaya office me shayar...
Tho baitna padega ghar me saari umar...

Some of the other Shers which I wrote for him...

Shayar hum nahin shayar tho woh khuda hai...
Jiski kalam ki shayari meri zindagi hai..
hum tho yoon hi mar jaathe apne hi gham me..
Magar nahin, zikr hai tumhara is shayari me..

Agar dosthi hai khatre me tho hum shayari chod denge...
Tumhare liye tho saare rishte thod denge...
Shayad isee liye dard jalak tha hai har shayar ki kalam se..
Kyon ki dost nahin milthe har kisi ko tumhare jaise...

Hume nahin leni tumse takkar..
Hey dost kafa math ho inhe padkar..
Aur kisse kahoon ye baathe tumse hatkar..
Ye shayari nahin.. bhej raha hoon dil ke dard bhar kar...

Raziya Series...

Long back myself and my friend had a bet. The bet was that he will sms one shayari and in return I have to send one..all own..no copy...Lets see who wins...So I started the race...So that day we exchanged so many shers..and you know what.. I won..!! Usne koi 3-4 bheje honge..maine tho uska inbox overflow kar diya..but I know he was fed up reading all my trash shers..he simply gave up ;) Usme aur bardasht karne ki takat nahin thi :)..No thoughts involved..its just a love for the rhymes...One thing I maintained in most of the shers, the name Raziya...and this was all done in one day..so you can also get ready to be bored... :)

Jab se mili hai Raziya..
Hum bhool gaye hai duniya...
Kuch yaad nahin hai mere yaara..
Tu patha batade apna dobara..


Hume nahin parwa uske jaat ki..
Ho chuke hai katputhli uske haath ki...
Duwa karo na nikle woh Bewafa..
Kyonki beti hai woh dhanwan ki...


Khoyle ki khan me heera hai woh..
Kishan kanayya ki meera hai woh..
Yug yugon ki tapas ka phal hai..
Be shaq jannat ka sitara hai woh..


Razia ki tarif sunke na hona behal...
Mere pyare mujhe bhi ban na hai malamal...
Par bata mat dena uske baap ko meri ye chaal...
Warna woh tho kardega mera halal..


Raziya tho ek bahana hai..
Apna maamla tho thoda purana hai..
Poori baat tho nahin batana hai...
Par shayari se thoda thoda sathana hai...


Zindagi ki dhoop me chaav hai Raziya...
Muskurane se uske khilthi hain kaliyan...
Sagar se gehri hain uske do akhiyan..
Kyon ithni sundar hothi hai ye ladkiyan..


Deewana dil maantha nahin..
Raziya ke bina kuch jaantha nahin...
Zaalim meri ye haalath banake..
Has rahi hai dekho jaise kuch bhi patha nahin..


Kisi zamane me hum bhi the ashiq...
Hamare peeche bhi thi ladkiyon ki traffic..
Woh zamana tho guzar gaya...
Par shukar hai ab bhi saath hai Raziya...


Huwa karthi thi meri zindagi khali...
Diya karthe the hum kismat ko gaali...
Par ab khili hai dil me Raziya ki rangoli...
Ab tho khelenge uske saath har din holi...


Sone nahin dethi mujhe Raziya ki yaad...
Ab tho koi nahin hai mera uske baad...
Arey reham karo kaise yar ho tum..
Chod diya mujhe yoon hi hone barbaad...


Har pal zubaan par bas Raziya ka naam..
Meri tho rathon ki neende haraam..
Uske bina ab tho kuch hotha nahin kaam...
Mujhko ab kaun bachaye, Allah ya Ram...


Kya mast hai ye barsaat ki raat...
Toofan bhi hai yahan bijli ke saath...
Dil chahe hathon me Raziya ka haath...
Par khuda jaane kab hogi apni mulakath..


Raziya jo meri zindagi se chali gayi..
Kya batavoon kya halat bana gayi..
Raat ko neend nahin, din ko chain nahin...
Mujhe tho kambakth jeeteji laash bana gayi...


Raziya ke bin zindagi aisi hai ki...
Kismat pe hum roye ya kismat humpe roye...
Kyon chodgayi hume besharam..
bina kuch bataye..


Har aankhon me dikhti hai Raziya ki tasweer..
Thod nahin paya hoon uske yadon ki zanjeer..
Ek baar tho muskuravo meri khatir...
Kyon nahin mitathi ye judai ki lakheer..


Arey kyon hothe ho gussa...
Mazha karo sunke Raziya ka kissa..
Mere dil ke tukde hain ye sher...
Sambhal ke rakhna inhe mere yar..


Kabhi kabhi mere aankhon ko mere dil se jalan hothi hai...
Pooch mere yaar kyon meri ankein rothi hain...
kyonki Raziya hamesha mere dil ke paas par aankhon se door hothi hai...


Patha nahin..us din shayad Galib ki rooh mujh par meherbaan huyi thi ...ya ye bhi ho saktha hai ki ye sab padke usne khud khushi karli ho :D

Ajeeb si Tanhayi..

Kal raat ko phir se chayi thi wo tanhayi...kabhi kabhi aisa ho jatha hai...dil me kuch hulchal..man me kuch nami see..aansuon ko tho tapakne ki kwayish thi...magar najane kaun si baat rok rahi thi unhe..mere is halath ke bare me kuch dost jaanthe hai..magar kabhi kabhi aisa bhi hotha hai ki kayi dosthon ke hone ke bawajoot dil akhelapan mehsoos kartha hai...meri kamzori bhi yahi hai ki jab bhi mera dil ajeeb tanhayi se dosthi kar lethi hai tab main likhna shuru kartha hoon..main ye nahin sochta ki mere is naadani ko kyon log padenge...par chupana meri aadath nahin...aisa hi kuch huwa kal raat ko bhi...ab itna tho pad chuke ho..aage bhi sehlo...

Labz zuban pe aathe hain bahut...
Kalam uthane ki chahat bhi hai..
Shayad mitha pavoon tujhe is zakmi dil se...
Magar gabrahat si hothi hai..
Kahin teri bewafayi se main shayar na ban jaavoon...

Marriage....

They say..not all men are fools some are bachelors...so I am still not a fool...I don't know when I will become one..

Recently in office during a casual chat the subject turned to marriage..I was the only bachelor guy in that group..so everyone started advising me..they were telling about all the plus and minuses of married life...One guy said, wife is like a mosquito trapped inside the mosquito net..it won't get out and it won't leave you without biting...you can't do much about it.. you have to live with it...hmm..is it so? When they asked me about my marriage, I said I am still looking for good alliances (even though I never thought seriously about marriage)...then, that guy told..whether you are hit by a ordinary stone or a golden stone..the effect is same..hmm..now I am thinking seriously about getting married or not...hey just kidding...

Kehte hai na shaadi ki laddu jo khaye wo pachtaye jo na khaye wo bhi pachtaye...chalo hum khake pachatate hai...bina khaye pachtane se behtar hai na? ;)

Blogging..

Why Should I blog?..I had the same question in mind when I started....I see so many blogs filled with so much of posts...when I think of those people who can write so well..then I feel that there is no place for me here...But then I think.. whoever writes whatever, I don't care...Let me also start...This is a good way of expressing myself even if my posts don't make any sense...

I had a habit of writing diary long back but I have stopped it now due to lack of time, work pressure etc...Though I knew about blogging long back and I was reading some blogs also...but I didn't take much interest to start my own...but recently when I was checking some blogs suddenly I felt like...if all these people can irritate us with all their posts...why shouldn't I? ;)

So I too started..there is no other cost effective way of expressing yourself to the world other than blogging..correct me if I am wrong...I know there are lots of cheap ways ..I don't want to get into those..

Tho start tho karliya.. ab likhe kya?...Arrey dont worry ..likho jo man me aaye...

My type of girl..!!

Who is my type of girl??

The one who looks very cute and beautiful to my eyes?..or the one who accepts everything you say without an argument?.. or the one, whom I think is very smart and intelligent...

Frankly speaking now I don't believe in love at first sight...at first sight what do you know about that girl?

Its just a bodily infatuation...its a victory of heart over mind...but I don't deny that I didn't have love at first sight...there is a particular age when even donkey looks cute..!! so even I have been also caught in this trap of love at first sight...but not now.. now when I think of it, I myself laugh at me..it looks so funny...

Now when I think of things like, why I never had a love at first sight with a girl who is not so beautiful?.. So is it a universal phenomena that love at first sight happens only if the girl is cute? Even when that not so beautiful girl proposes you, why we reject? Why I think of only a fair,cute girl ? Why we don't think that we need a companion who loves us and not the one whom we force to love...Why we break the heart of that poor girl?...Why don't we see a beautiful heart?..Hers was also love at first sight right? I didn't know answers for all this at that time..I didn't know beauty was only skin deep....

Sometimes you may understand about a person in one interaction...quite possible..but in some other cases even after so many years of togetherness..still people don't understand each other..forget lovers or so called lovers...if you take married couples..there are lot of cases where they are still strangers to each others feelings, even after number of years of married life....Virtually fighting is different..and its common..but the kind of cold war which happens between the married couples is a sign of lack of understanding...Still they continue to live together...like two parallel lines...even if they are together, they never meet..

We can defend those cases in arranged marriages, saying that it was an arranged marriage by their parents.. they never got a chance to understand each other before marriage...its a different matter altogether why they didn't try to do that after marriage...

I don't understand why some couples still hang on to their relation even when there is no juice in it....is it the fear of society or they are addicted to it? I think its ones own individual life and they have got to take decisions...if they don't gel, then there is no point in continuing...they have to come openly instead of the cold war and take decisions to move forward...they cannot cheat themselves for life long...

In some other cases love blossoms after marriage...they feel like they are made for each other... and its only a formality of marriage done by their parents...even this is the case with love before marriage...they were also strangers... until one fine day they meet and over the period they understand each other..they become one soul and two bodies..I think the same can happen in case of married couples...the only difference here from the earlier case is, they are married...

Even in case of love marriages, how many of them have succeeded?...where does all the love go after marriage?..you need to agree that there are exceptions in all cases...

OK..I think I am deviating from the subject...so the subject is who is your type of girl?

If you think of your type of girl..there is no relevance of love at first sight...because only by physical appearance one cannot decide whether that girl is his type or not..so love at first sight is ruled out...so how do you know whether a girl is my type or not?

Arey..don't look at me for the answer ...even I don't know....ok...let us read the problem from a different angle....girl of type your is who?..I read it from reverse... so its a different angle to read a problem right? ;) ok...wait... don't get irritated...see there are so many ads in between a TV program...do u get irritated?...take it in that way...even if you get irritated, you can change the channel...but don't do it here...we are discussing a serious subject....who is your type of girl? ;)

After all these discussion, taking all the cases and exceptions, still you want me to say who is my type of girl...or is there one?

Dost..

Tere jaane se phir se chaayi hai tanhayi..
mano ya na mano yahi hai sachhai..
nahin jaantha tha apne dosti ki geharayi..
ab tere jaane ke baad samajh me aayi..

One more shayari .....

Hey bewafa...
milthi nahin magar..
chahat hai zeher peene ki..
kya bharosa tera...
kaun hai yahan mera...
jo aas jagaye mere jeene ki..

LIFE...!!

LIFE…...I still wonder…what is the meaning of this term to me?...Somebody said LIFE means..Living In Full Energy….great thinking….but if energy is missing in life….do they still need to lead it?...I don't know..I may sound like a pessimist….a usual pessimist, whom everybody would like to avoid…but why do I sound like that?...or rather why do I behave like that?..I know, sometimes I am so happy and the whole world around me looks so nice..so beautiful…so energetic…but then I think.. does my happiness depends upon happening of some event…is it relative happiness...if not… why am I not happy always?

Happiness….one more term..what is it?...If something happens in your favor , then only you are happy…If you want the things to happen always as you wish, then only you are happy…is it the opposite of sadness?..or is it the lack of sadness?...is it that if you are not sad..then you are happy?...I don't know…

I see people around me…with so many variety…somebody is not happy with the society…not happy with the place, the job, the salary,wife,husband,kids,parents or even the country…or simply not happy seeing others happy…

They say.,…man is a social animal…he cannot live without the society…without mingling with others…I don't agree with that…I have seen enough of social life…mingling with friends, relatives…..but sometimes you feel very much lonely in that crowd…..as if you are in a jungle…with no one around..and all the trees are running behind you for your blood….Of course its an imagination…..trees are better than humans…they give everything to the human society and instead get nothing but their death…how selfish we are…

Loneliness is a state of mind..not only physically…you can be around so many people..but still you feel lonely…why does that happen?...then what is the society is for?....it may be an individual problem…but that individual is also a part of the society…

I don't know..why am I writing all these..do I have any subject in mind?or simply scribbling bullshit?...see my unstable mind….or do I have a mind? …or do you mind reading all this?

Do I have a problem?..do I need counseling? Does every problem has a solution?.....I don't know….does every solution has a problem?...if we don't get the favorable solution for our problems,why do we think that there is no solution for that problem?...Does that mean that we all seek a favorable solution always?

People have relationships…some relations are attached during our birth…some happens as we grow…as we see things around…you make friends…you make good friends…you make best friends….you love somebody…you feel a crush on somebody…you feel like you cannot live without that person…you don't realize how you lived till meeting that person on some fine day…..It all happens…people forget about their past when they are in love….really love is blind…they say… you fall in love with somebody…why is it always fall in love?...why not rise in love?...you always fall in love because love is blind?...and you cannot see the pot holes in front of you?

And there are also some relations which cannot be named…people may call it friendship..love…affection..caring…blah blah blah……..but it is true that neither of them fits the relationship…..it may seem to be strange..but can't deny the existence of such relationships….

And there are some other relationships where one person thinks of one relation but the other person may not be aware of that…that person may think of some other relation…at the end its full of confusion and nobody knows what's the thing going on?

Just some of my wild thinking…some fire was there in the mind…just wanted to put it off…I don't know when it will shoot up again…till then……………………………..

I too started blogging..!!

Hmm.. so I have also started blogging..Right now I don't know what I will do here..but hope to put some posts soon...

Basically I like to read a lot..I read fiction, non fiction, spiritual and whatever I can digest..

Digest... yes..I love to try different foods also..I am a fishetarian..!! I just can't resist the mouth watering sea food..yummy..:)

I am a scorpion...but I don't bite..

I am basically a fun loving person...love to make friends..whether they want me as a friend or not..!!

Hmm.. what else..

Ya..I write shayaris..though my friend says its childish...I think he is jealous of me ;)

Let me present you one of my creations...can somebody tell me whether its childish...

Wo mohabbat nahin thi..
Hum yoon hi diwane the...
Phir bhi rehne do...
Meri chahat tera inkar..
Use yoon hi rehne do..
Mat thodo humse rishta...
Akheli zindagi hai...
Dushmani hi sahi..
Use yoon hi rehne do..

Ok.. I will come with more posts with more shayaris..all my creations.. not copied from anywhere...